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Friday, 26 September 2008
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Oars IN and paddle HARD
I think I know the source of my struggle.
I am scared!
God is trying to lead me into something and I'm being a big chicken because I'm not sure of what that 'something' is and how I'll fair at the end of the struggle.
Tonight (or last night, to be more accurate), at our study, Romans 12:2 was mentioned
'do not conform any longer to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.'
The Greek for transform is Metamorphoo, the mind is drawn immediately to a butterfly.
The butterfly is only the end product of what had to come before...
The struggle and the actually transformation.
I have to ask myself...AM I WILLING TO BE TRANSFORMED?
Will I, in my desire to really know God, stop my striving and my fighting and allow God to change me?
I want God to be my everything, so will I let God be my everything and effectively change my world?
So, do you really believe what you believe is really real?
If so live it and let God change you...
Wednesday, 24 September 2008
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Rough Seas
It has been a rough few months for me spiritually.
And I HATE that!
I know that I harbor notions of God that are soo far from who He really is, but for that life of me I can't seem to get my act together enough to see Him like I should.
My pastor spoke Sunday on how we need reminded of the devils schemes and how he works to discourage us.
He is doing too good a job on this home front and I'm tired of it.
Most of this has to do with a increase of demands in my world AND I know that lows happen, but I want a high for crying out loud!
The lows of my life need to be more opportunities to draw closer to God. I am working to keep my eyes on Him...
In the meantime, I am praying for a vacation.
Sunday, 07 September 2008
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Avon Calling, no wait that's just work
This has been a long few weeks
I won't go into it though.
I get scared sometimes.
Because I worry that my relationship with God will not be what it should be.
I don't want to become a moderate Christian
Especially at work.
I am a representative of Jesus all the time, but I don't want that to just be a show
I want to be real through and through
I just worry that with my busy schedule that I will not be able to devote enough time to God and so drift from God
My relationship with God is important to me.
I'm doing the best I can
Through fatigue, work, and lack of interest.
But Jesus has done everything for me.
May He continue to be my everything...
Sunday, 31 August 2008
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Did I just do what I think I just did?
Seriously...
This past week has been the longest week ever.
Like, I want to quit my job(s) and take a permanent vacation, long
It was a week of extreme fatigue, anger, frustration, mistakes, and lots of fear.
and
I am worried that this coming week will just be more of the same.
My pastor mentioned today that sometimes we can mistake our desires for God's will.
That made me stop...
Could I have taken on an extra job (diminishing my chances of getting any sleep), extra responsibility, extra stress for the very wrong reasons?
Was my desire for more experience and extra money just that: My Desire and NOT God's will?
Now I feel torn
Am I really doing this because it just what I want to do, or is it God leading me?
If it's me, will God bless this mess I've gotten myself in?
And if it's Him, is this going to get any better...anytime soon?
I'm just hoping not to be so scared to go to work.
Sam mentioned Psalm 18
1 I love you, O Lord, my strength. 2 The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in
whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. 3 I call to the Lord, who is worthy of praise, and I am saved from my enemies. 4 The cords of death entangled me; the torrents of destruction overwhelmed me. 5 The cords of the grave coiled around me; the snares of death confronted me. 6 In my distress I called to the Lord; I cried to my God for help. From his temple he heard my voice; my cry came before him, into his ears. (crosswalk.com)
So no matter what, He is still who I need to run to.
I guess I'll tell you who things come along in the next few weeks.
The righteous run into it and they are safe...
Monday, 18 August 2008
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Looking A Little tooo Closely
As a red-blooded female, I LIKE BOYS!
I was about 14 when I became a Christian, so I was young enough then that I never became involved in alot of the things that girls my age did.
But I was still boy crazy.
I'm not boy crazy anymore, but I'm not blind either.
So, as a fully aware woman I won't hesitate to tell you that guy at the gym is gorgeous.
As a Christian, who is well aware of sexual immorality, I struggle with the line.
I don't want to be seen slobbering all over said 'hot gym guy', but no interest means no one's interested in me.
What is the line?
As a Christian woman, what do you do when you encounter a gorgeous guy? How do you stop yourself from looking too closely?
I just wonder sometimes.
ccarothers
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- Name: ccarothers
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 5/22/2008
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